Designing Mama

Kiss me when I sleep

Luana Cardenas2 Comments

I know sweet Solly, that it's been months since I've last written. I can never find the perfect words to tell you how much I miss you. And there are no words do describe how much I need you. Life is harder here without you. You took a huge part of me when you went to heaven and it's so hard to breath. I feel so sick. I'm surrounded by people yet I feel so alone. I feel like without you, I don't have purpose. 

Who can understand me? Who can know this pain? I wake up early in the morning and pray God will bless me with another baby just like you. It hurts, because I only want it to be you. I'd carry you 10, no 50 times again if I knew it was going to be you. All I want is you! You were my first born. You were different. You were special.

Do you see me when I search for you in the sky? Do you see when I cry for you at night? Or when I smile because I know you have seen God's face?

You amaze me every single day. The way you have changed me and the way I see the world and its people. I have so much to thank you for.

I love you with my entire being. You are my truest love. Your father misses you deeply. I love you my sweet baby. Come to visit me and kiss me when I sleep. 

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